This last
week I took on a mantra of Rampage = bad.
At times my
life seems to be out of my control, but how could that be possible when it is
so hopelessly mundane. – Or so it seems, at least when compared to my childhood
dreams and goals. We all did it: we gave ourselves dramatic goals that we were
supposed to have already accomplished two or three years ago. But no one ever
told us what to do when it came time to “pay the piper” and we were still
paying student loans…
I was
supposed to be traveling the world or at least saving it by now. How have I not
discovered the cure for cancer? Or been scuba diving? Life is flying me by and
I keep missing the flight!
I beat
myself up and wonder what have I had been doing this whole time, but I am only
27. I am not due for a mid-life crisis for another 15 years!
It is times
like these that I have to remember to breathe. It is so easy to get caught in my
brain and beat to the point of hysterics by expectations.
I take my
30 seconds and remember that I am perfect.
I am exactly were I need to be.
There is nothing that I need to
have done. No where I need to be.
I am Perfect.
I am
I am
Just who I need to be.
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| San Tan Valley, Arizona 2012 Shot by Angelina Spence |
There is beauty everywhere, even in dusty San Tan
Valley, Arizona. I don’t need to be scaling mountains in Europe to see wonder.
It can be found right here in my back yard.
Life is not
over. True, I cannot go back and relive the past ten years, but I can choose
what I do for the next ten. Today, may not be the day that I go scuba diving in
the Coral Reefs in Australia, but it can be the day that I sign up for scuba
lessons.
Week one: I
quiet my brain and take one tiny step towards my dream.
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| Mesa, Arizona 2012 Shot by Angelina Spence |
